January 11th; Excited :D

My next doctor's appointment is on January 11th. I am going in for more blood work because they didn't get enough blood at my first appointment for all the tests I signed to have done. Well, I am 15 weeks today so, if I'm lucky, they will do an ultrasound and tell me the sex of my baby! I really hope they will do an ultrasound! I haven't gotten to see my baby yet, only heard its heartbeat. So, needless to say I am very anxious about this next appointment. My fingers are crossed for a little girl, but I will love my Cuddle-bug no matter what it turns out to be (: As long as I have a healthy baby!♥

Separated Family

Since my parents were separated, my dad got the boys (my 2 brothers) and my mom got the girls (my sister and myself). Well, since then, 2 more brothers have been added to the family. All four of my brothers live with my dad in Texas.
I really miss them, I only get to see them over summer breaks or an occasional holiday. However, now that I am starting school soon, getting there for whole summers is going to be more difficult. I didn't get to spend this past summer 2010 with them because I was taking care of my sister's two kids (ages then 2 and 11 months). The last time I saw them was in April 2010 when I went for a 2 week visit. That just isn't enough time. I love my brothers and we get along great.... and maybe separation brings us closer together, but it is almost as though I don't know them. I only get to talk to them on the phone every so often because of school and trying to find a job. Plus, our talks are never too long because my younger brothers range from age 3 to14 and my older brother isn't always around the house to be able to talk and catch up.
A lot of the time, I wish we all lived closer. My mom's husband wants to stay in Florida and my dad thinks Florida is a terrible state so of course there isn't much of a choice. I can't live with my dad because there is already so many people there (My dad, stepmother, 4 boys). There's not much space for comfortable living if I moved there too especially since I am expecting a baby.

My point is, I miss my brothers...

Merry Stinkin' Christmas

Since my sister is living with us until she can get a place for herself and her kids to stay, she has my room and I am kicked to the couch. Being pregnant and sleeping on the couch= not the most comfortable spot to sleep. I have no privacy, not even in the bathroom seeing as her daughter knows how to unlock the door. I am stressed and annoyed because my sister doesn't have any consideration for anyone else and trashes the whole house. She doesn't pick up after her kids, so I am left to do it. When it's time for a nap or something, she goes outside to smoke first leaving her kids inside with me, screaming because they want to be outside with their mother (but it's too cold). I really wish she could get off her ass and do some work, instead of leaving me to do all of it. They aren't even my kids and I'm the one who ends up getting saddled cleaning up after them, getting them down for a nap while she smokes, bathing, even feeding them because again, she goes to smoke first. Great way to spend the holidays huh?

So, on top of all the chaos in my house and all the drama surrounding my pregnancy, when my stepbrothers' grandma came over today, she just had to comment on it. She proceeded to pretend slap, kick and punch me and call me stupid... as if I'm not judged enough already by my own family.


Well, I think I'll go crawl under a rock.
Merry Christmas.

Teen Mom-to-be Bashed on Tumblr

This is pretty self explanatory.